Week 11 ( 3rd Nov - 9th Nov)

Still feeling on a bit of an emotional roller coaster this week. I think I am still overwhelmed at just how tiring all this being a mum thing is. I thought it would be all smile and fun and now I see it's very lonely and frustrating trying to guess what a little one wants or needs. I think there have been moments that I wondered why people do this second time round but I think it's just I am yet to adapt to this new lifestyle. I love my little fella more and more but I do sometimes find myself wishing time would speed up so that he is easier to understand. I can hear all the mothers out there saying don't wish this time away it is wonderful make the most of it. But it's just so exhausting, on so many levels. 

He is growing so much his 3 month clothes are small and I am having to take out the 6-9 month collection, is this normal or is my baby a giant?

He still struggling to fall asleep during the day but luckily daddy took 2 days off this week and kept us company Thursday-Sunday. Yepppy!!! We love having daddy around.

Week 10 (27th Oct - 2nd Nov)

This week has had all sorts. I reached my lowest feeling on Tuesday, Aydin was crying on and off all day and I simply felt helpless. I was on the verge of giving him calpol worrying he was unwell. 

Luckily both Tuesday and Thursday Ewa popped round to keep me company and keep me sane. On Wednesday mum, Juanchi and Stella came for dinner and finally on Friday Tuba popped in with her mum and Sami so I had more company then any other week so far. So by Wednesday I was already more like my old self and so was Aydin. 

Bonding time

Family play time

This kid just goes so well in this flat

Sometimes you just feel down and need another perceptive 

Look at those legs!!!

More clothes from grannie

This stripy number made me almost eat him alive. How can this beautiful boy be mine???

Week 9 ( 20th Oct - 26th Oct)

It's all smiles this week do far.

Aydin is really looking at us now. Before his gaze would drift off but now he is focusing fully on ours faces which is wonderful. He has been crying less too and now I think I understand that he wants a nap at 8:30am or he will be cranky and that goes for other naps.

We started baby yoga on Wednesday which went as expected. Very little yoga, lots of breastfeeding. But it's a start and it getting me out of the house. 

First Bath

What a success! I was terrified he would hate it but he loved it! Not a tear in sight. And he looked so adorable in that baby bath. I must admit I left it to grannie because I was too scared to attempt this myself, he just looked so fragile. 

Week 8 (13th Oct -19th Oct)

My boy is 2 months old!!! 2 months!!

Well this week was like a milestone to me, it felt like such a far of possibility, but suddenly it is here. Another month complete and again more struggles with falling asleep this week. Aydin is still not letting himself fall asleep easily, there is crying and screaming before any peace and quiet. 

But on a more positive and 'a make everything worthwhile kinda way' he is smiling lots more. Nearly every morning he is giving us a glimpse of what a gorgeous little smile he has or will have when he does it more often (am I too hopeful?). At the moment I seem to catch him smiling with himself more than he actually smiles at any attempts I make at being funny (not easy being funny to a 8 week old). 

This week was also Aydins first immunisation, why didn't anyone warn me how heartbreaking this would be? My poor little one screamed so loud I was almost reduced to tears myself. What made it worse was having him screaming and then been given a second jab on the other leg. Oh and what makes it even worse still is that it will get done two more times in the next few months. :( I will try not to think about this too much, but I am dreading it. As a consequence of these jabs his Friday and Saturday were spent mostly sleeping. He had a bit of a temperature which luckily went down by removing a few layers (blankets and pyjamas). 

I spent more than half the week with a horrendous cough/cold which developed into all the symptoms in one day but thankfully looks set to disappear fairly quickly. Not before making me feel very miserable for the first time since giving birth and being pregnant. Frankly I can't remember the last low. Being sick and having a little one demanding every bit of your concentration and attention is not easy. All I wanted was Hal to be with me all the time and to take over with the baby as much as a possible.

Anyway, to conclud this week was a bit tough on me but was made bare-able by my little ones lovely smile and by some serous tears when the going got tough. By the end of the week my low was over and my baby turned 2 months old. 

Week 7 (6th Oct - 12th Oct)

The start of the week came with the first cold night so far, it has suddenly become clear that winter is indeed around the corner. The nights are closing in and I am very aware that the days are getting shorter and the inevitable gloom of winter is upon us. Though with Aydin in our lives I am sure this winter will be full of sunshine. 

We had Aydins hip check up on Tuesday and thankfully it seems everything is ok after the initial worry that he was born with a clicky left hip. Luckily Juanchi took me to the hospital and back, I still find myself fearful of venturing out with Aydin. With no routine whatsoever I am so scared of ending up with a screaming baby on the bus or even in the street. Also finding time to get ourselves ready to venture out between naps and feeds seems almost impossible. I am still struggling to even run down and grab food between watching him, perhaps I over complicate things but my day goes in a flash. His baby gym arrived this week and though he seems to like it the interest lasts very little and after a few minutes he wants to be picked up.
So not a great distraction for him.

Week 6 (29th Sept - 5th Oct)

This week was one of great exhaustion, Aydin seems right on queue with the 6 week growth spurt.

My week has been a complete blur, I have done a lot of breastfeeding (more than the usual every couple of hours) and Aydin has done a huge amount of complaining and screaming. The days were spent carrying him because every time I put him do he wakes up, the evenings had at least one hour of screaming for no apparent reason. Luckily the nights were plain sailing, I can't thank him enough for this. Hal has been amazing this week helping me out at night, though I worry how he manages the rest of the day at work after only a few hours sleep. 

The silver lining this week has been the glimpses of his smile, they have been few, and never when I had my camera ready, but they have made the headaches from his screams worth it.

On Tuesday I spent the day with Ewa which was absolutely lovely. I got to leave the house and catch up with her, just the 2 of us for most of the afternoon. On Saturday we celebrated my mums birthday which luckily was a home cooked meal, as Aydi continued his evening antics. 

Gosh, I hope we have got through the worst of this growth spurt, it breaks my heart hearing him scream, I feel like the most awful mama. And being so inexperienced it's easy to feel hopeless. 

Here's to a calmer week ahead. :)

Aydin with grannie

Aydin with a fluffy audience

Grannie and Auntie Ewa

3 Generations 

Proud Daddy